somebody help me??!!!

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ME get in trouble now...


don't know how to describe...
sis told me, all guys r all like that, even juz a meal, a normal date, they also thought they still have chance.
sis told me, in work place, don't b a silly staff, don't always waiting for boss order, find out whta you can do offer for them.
sis told me, whatever she advice, all is for my own good.
sis told me, sis told me, sis told me, sis told me, sis told me.....................

whatever sis told, i have to listen, i have to memories, i have to follow.
confused...
i lost myslef...


wanna cry... espacialy in the middle of the night...
i don't want hurt anybody, but i think i m too kindly to everybody...
at last... i hurt myself

i know...i know

you sure say you all don't understand what do i mean all i write above

but...

i realy don't want to explain what had happened to me...

i... realy feel disapointed to myself...

SAD DAY